It's been a while since I last posted. Many things have happened since then and those things that happened have set me thinking..

Thinking of where I will be in the next 5 years..
Thinking of whether I want to be there in the next 5 years..
Thinking of whether it is worth spending my next 5 years here..

This job of mine has really changed me. I have never viewed Singaporeans the way I viewed them now. It is indeed an eye-opener and I never regretted joining this profession of mine. However, certain things just make me want to give it all up. First of all, the members of public. Sure there are people who are really grateful for what you have done for them; but there are still those black dots around that are just never satisfied and complain at the slightest thing. There are times when I just want to slap them and tell them that "I DON'T OWE YOU A LIVING YOU ASSHOLE".

It doesn't help that the management takes those black dots very seriously. They wouldn't even flinch at the thought of sacrificing a fellow man just to please those black dots. Everywhere you go, there are dangers around the corner. For me, everyday I am dealing with cases that might just explode and blow my career away. Do people understand the feelings we go through? The stress that comes with handling those cases and members of public? Do they see the time we spend slogging our asses away just to serve them? Just to see that the rightful justice is done? NO! All they see are SERVANTS, drawing a monthly salary which is made up of their income tax. Do they even know that behind that card, is a normal human being? A normal person who would like to be left alone when they go for a holiday, a normal person who would like to enjoy their weekend peacefully, a normal person who wants to be appreciated.

Sometimes, I wonder if it is worth all this stress and heartache. Maybe it doesn't matter anymore..